It's stormy

I can't say I didn't see it coming. Yes, the weather is very unpredictable, which means you should be prepared for anything.

Once again I am stuck in a situation where my dad is just unbelievable. I seriously can't explain him. In order to explain him you would have to live in my house for 3 months but I wouldn't wish that upon anyone. It's one crazy mind f*ck!

You know when there is static in the air when your mom says, "I think I'm ready to date" and she is definitely still married! Although, I don't blame her, I wouldn't mind having a second daddy. After all I am the one searching for dog allowed one bedroom apartments in the area on craigslist.

We shall see how this one pans out. In the meantime my attention is being distracted by a very yummy strawberry cupcake! Nothing like a cupcake to calm your nerves during a storm.

lost weekend

This weekend my sister and my nephew decided to drop by San Fran for three days to come say Hello! It also happens to be the weekend I was suppose to devote to studying for my accounting final on Monday...that didn't happen.

Playing with the baby versus studying numbers and accounting principles...it wasn't that hard of a decision hehe. My nephew is too cute to pass up :)

I ended up paying for it by pulling an all nighter Sunday night and Monday morning to study. Although, due to my stupidity I set my alarm and forgot to change the AM and PM settings. My one hour nap turned into a 5 1/2 hour sleep. At least I woke up! It turned out for the better because I was well rested to cram those last 5 hours before my test.

We shall see how this goes...I think people stress too much over exams and finals. It is only a test not the end of the world. People have failed before and gone on living and if they are persistent enough succeed in life. I'm not too worried. Accounting is no longer my major and the only reason I didn't drop this class is because I wanted to take it for kicks and giggles. Before I didn't want to drop accounting because I didn't want people to think I couldn't do it or that I quit. Completing this class shows I can do it, I just don't WANT to do it. There is a difference.

After my accounting final I have to say goodbye to my sister and baby then get ready for Lady Gaga concert!! Amazing what I can do in one weekend.

bfast

My breakfast concoction...vanilla yogurt with strawberries and bits of fortune cookies (tastes better than granola)

family ties

Merriam-Webster definition of family:
a group of persons of common ancestry : clan b : a people or group of peoples regarded as deriving from a common stock : race

Don't get me wrong. I love my family just as much as I love to eat cupcakes but sometimes family ties can run thin and at any moment I am ready to just take my scissors and cut right through that thread.

I just don't understand how grown adults can act so childish. When you are an adult you are SUPPOSE to know how to return a phone call. When you are an adult you are SUPPOSE to speak your feelings. When you are an adult you are SUPPOSE to understand and not act selfish.

I'm only 20 years old but yet I know this. I may not be perfect. Actually, I'm not perfect and I make a thousand mistakes before I get things right, if I ever do. Why can't people just realize their faults and move forward? It is just making me feel frustrated and being frustrated towards family members is not good.

Everyone just needs to grow up and stop being so sensitive! Goodness, grow a beard or something if that will make you man up to your mistakes.

I'm thankful for my two front teeth

My monster of a dog...Milo

Ducklings.

Kay and Trystan: my sister's baby and his first thanksgiving :)

My father: his hardworking personality that has kept me in private school my entire life.

My mother: enough said. a mother's love and care cannot be explained fully in words.

Leaves are falling

Autumn is here again, which means pumpkin pie, cranberry sauce, and family time.

I love the cold that comes with Autumn because it brings out the hats, warm jackets, and BOOTS. When I was little I remember my first pair, which were white cowboy boots that were only suppose to be worn with my Halloween costume but I thought they were too cute to only wear once. So I wore them every day and I was sad when I finally had to retire them. It seems that things haven't changed much since I'm still addicted to them, I just have more of a variety.

Autumn leaves may change but somethings never will.

Autumn leaves falling

Yellow, orange, crunch, crunch!

Blue and crimson sky

No Subject

I've realized that my life consists of nothing really exciting or thrilling. My only real thrill is when the next episode of Glee is going to come on. So I am not going to write another meaningless blog until something happens that is worth writing about.

TTFN

some things i like

Bumble Bee Bracelet.
Christina Aguilera & her leopard outfit
Nice Tats.


Buddha Buddha

the forecast

Ever since "the storm" my parents have been acting differently.

Dad: He has been nice, understanding, and calm. He gets along with my mom and the dogs. Very strange in my house.

Mom: BIG CHANGE!!

I don't know what happened but I feel like she is renovating her life after all the damages the storm had caused. She is out every night with her friends, just gossiping and laughing. Taking dance classes and going to salsa clubs and getting dressed up with make-up and heels! Always smiling and understanding, not that she hasn't been in the past but know her mannerisms have changed. My mom is cleaning house of all the useless baggage she had stored. She is doing things to improve her situation and I am so proud of her for her new self-confidence and self-esteem. Mi amo mi madre mucho. I hope to have the same beauty she has when I am older. Although, I have learned from her mistakes that I will not fall into the same despair she once found herself in. There is still much to do about rebuilding the wreck but I know my mom will recover.

Parents can either make you crazy or keep you sane. My parents just keep me on my toes. I will never know what the weather might be the next day.

Budda Budda

I'm SOOO SOO HAPPY because I'm most likely going to be studying in Budapest Spring 2010!

I thought all hope was lost last year when my dad had told me that he was not going to let me. This year though, I don't know what changed but he did not object to me studying abroad.

I'm ready for a culture shock. The only places I have been have either been in the US or in Canada. Canada doesn't even count. If Canada is considered to be a domestic flight according to the airports then I'm not going to count it as international in my book. I have always wanted to go to Europe and Budapest is the best place to go. I will be able to travel all over Europe and meet tons of new people. (hopefully cute people haha)

Now I just anticipating Spring semester!

Bon Voyage

the Adult life

GoodNews! The wicked witch is dead!

hehe

I finally quit Max's and let me tell you it is quit wonderful. Never do I have to work for people that I have to act fake towards. Never do I have to work in place that reminds me of my mother and how she was "laid off for economic reasons". No more bullshit basically.

Other great news is that my position as internship has turned into Executive Assistant. Awesome...right! My horoscope said not to make a fuss at work and look at what happened. I waited patiently and I got to leave the job I didn't want and get hired at the job I did want. Nice turnout!

Downside is I'm experiencing what it's like to work full time and have no life after work. Part of me wants to be a kid again but the other part is grateful that I have a job.

milo

milo is my baby dog and will always be a puppy in my eyes.

he used to be a real monster dog. seriously, i couldn't take him anywhere! but, at home he would be the sweetest dog ever and all of a sudden he has been such an angel in public. i took him to san fran today and he didn't once bark or bite anyone! there were children and bicyclist and tourists and he just walked right by them. even when he saw my dad, who was in his uniform, he was able to recognize him right away. i don't know what happened but i like it. this means that i can take milo out on more outtings! i found a new coffee buddy hehe.

Future Children

Since 2009 seems to be the year to become pregnant I have decided to think about my future baby names.

For a girl I like...

Adele
Audrey
Amelie
Fiona
Emanuelle

For a boy...

Amiel
Elliot
Sebastian

Hopefully, I'm not going to be naming my baby anytime soon it's good to have a list ready. You just never know when it will come in hand (hehe). Although, top baby names this year have to be Trystan Michael and Phaedre Alice :)

Summer Days

So far this summer all I have done is catch up on some major sleep and work 24 hrs a week.

Though I'm excited to get my paycheck! It's going to be a biggie. ALSO, it is just one more month till I get to quit! Woot Woot!! At the end of this month I get to end the trap of Max's. I will not fall into the same cycle as my mother and cousins. Max's is not going to be my career and I will not work for that company for no longer than this month. I'm just going to make money then bounce! Seriously, I'm bored for working for them and there are absolutely no benefits from prolonging my stay there. Time to find another minimum wage job to add to my resume.

Sleepy

For some reason I can't stop sleeping. I feel like a dog. Seriously, all I do is eat and sleep! Sleep is so relaxing and I just can't get enough hehe. Goal for today is to get out of the house and not to take a nap!

i'm on a Mission

Today was a very good day in the neighborhood.

I woke up to the sun shinning and the birds chirping lol

I was able to finish my journals for KA, which were suppose to be due last night (whoops) and I took my pups for a walk at the marina. I even washed the inside and out of my car, go to a Giants game and eat garlic fries with a nice cold lemonade (yummy). Since it was such a nice day out going to a baseball game was very suiting. This game also gave me a new crush to look out for. Number 55 for the Giants, a pitcher hehe!
I got to explore the Castro and Mission. Eat a good burrito at 9 at night and get hit on by some grungy boy who hasn't showered in a couple days. Overall, good day. Now I just got to get into studying mood! Very hard to do after such a relaxing day. At least I don't have to go to work tomorrow!

Scooby Doo

Morning cartoons!

I've never been awake with enough time to actually watch morning cartoons anymore. Brings me back to when I was little.
Scooby Doo is on...gotta run!

NO WATER

I HATE TODAY

There is something about today that I just don't like! I don't know what it is but I'm just so dam cranky. I don't want to hear anyone making jokes at me or just around me. It's one of those days where I just want to b*tch out everyone and then later cry because everyone is so frustrating to deal with.

I sit through a full 2 hours of class hungry for a burrito. My parents always complain that I don't do anything with them so I drive home to eat with them. What happens my mother is trying to make me rice to make me a burrito because they already ate. I know this is really sweet of her but I just don't CARE! I want a burrito not a f*cking imitation that is not going to taste the same. The whole reason I wanted a burrito was so I can get my dam protein that she was complaining I don't get enough of because I don't eat chicken. Well, the only beans we have are the canned ones that also come with BACON (I can't eat bacon). So now I have rice and tortillas. SHOOT ME!

I am about to walk out and just buy myself a burrito but of course I can't do that because my mother is toooo sensitive!

I REALLY HATE TODAY--THE WATER WENT OUT TODAY AND I THINK MY COMPASSION WENT OUT WITH IT.

Banquet

ITS MY BANQUET!

so tell me why I feel that this banquet is going to be one of my more stress full and most irratating! If I don't want to bring a date then it shouldn't be up to anyone else. Just because it is suggested to bring a date then that doesn't mean that everyone HAS to! No one can picture what it is going to be like for me. If you are so ok with it then how would you feel? Honestly?! I tried and tried to get over it the whole day but I can't. I would have moments when I would just say F* it and there are others times when I would say NO WAY.

I just want to get it over with and get my 80 dollars worth!

Oh my life

I need to become an accountant. I want to be the most awesome accountant ever or at least better than Marco hehe! I think its good that I got to know Marco because he makes me so competitive over the stupidest things.
Accounting is something that I want to be the best at. I want to be better than anyone else in my class but my work does not reflect my ambition. I know I could get As in my classes but I don't study! It makes me frustrated because I know my potential but I just don't apply myself. Why is it that I become so lazy with my studies and I wonder what it will take in order to get myself going?
Oh life...I need to find an internship for the summer or sometime in the future. I also want to find a better paying job! I have necessary expenses that I have to be paid for somehow other than daddy's pocket.

My motivation to study should be to earn a well paying job in order to pay for anything I want. Trips, shopping, eating out, apartment, car, and paying off college!

ok...I should pay attention to the teacher now!

Dedicated to you know who...

I mish my bumble bee.

Impulse

If I start planning things it just makes things more complicated.  Although, if I don't make plans for things I get stressed out because I don't know what to do. 

So I figure this out...

Short term=plan

Long term=don't plan

This seems to be opposite of the norm but it's how I function. Short term meaning what am I going to do today in order to get things done i.e homework, chores, shower etc. Long term meaning what am I going to do after college, job search, and tattoos. I can't think about or plan these things out.  I learned that nothing happens the way people plan.  So many graduates say that their job has nothing to do with their major in college.  This is because things change, situations change, and so do passions.  I may like business and accounting but who knows what I may end up doing later in life.  My outlook is try not to speak too soon.  

For example, a tattoo is a long term decision because it is something that is going to stay with you your ENTIRE life unless you would like to go through that painful process of having it removed (not). When I start sketching out a design I never end up getting it.  I always end up with something I think of the night before or right before I sit down in the chair.  I end up loving it and living with it.  

Just try not to think so much and just do! You never know until you try. Besides even teachers tell you right before a multiple choice test...go with your impulse if you don't know the answer to the question.

Tan skin

I also learn these random facts when I'm in Lit class.  The other day my teacher explained to us how the times have changed.  Now people considered tan skin to be beautiful as well as fair skin.  Before light skin meant beauty and wealth.  Tan skin started taking a role when families would have enough money to afford leisure time under the sun.  Thus, having tan skin=leisure which equals wealth! 

I realized that I liked being tan because I seem to look more Mexican.  Weird, when I curl my hair and have darker skin I can transform into my hispanic side as opposed to when I straighten my hair and have light skin I can blend in more with my asian side.  I think I want to stay Mexican for a while or at least until the end of summer! My ethnicity changes with seasons haha

  

Got money?

Pay day is a wonderful day!

Since I started working last fall I have never had less than 100 in my checking account. There was something about the month of March that I just spent SOOO much money! It's ridiculous I really don't know where my money went. I was at the point where I needed to ask my parents for allowance (something I hate doing) just to pay off my credit card. Lesson learned, don't spend money you don't have. It's hard when there are so many things that you need to buy in order to stay afloat as a spontaneous college student.

I swear as soon as I heard my pay check was ready for me to pick up I wasted no time to rush to work so that I can deposit my lovely check. On top of that my parents generously disguised their donation to the poor as my Birthday money! I love my parents.

It feels good to have money back in the bank. We shall see if this time I won't end up in this situation once again.

PS
I really need to go Spring Break shopping hehe!

Steps to take

I started dancing when I was 3 years old. My mom had put me in tap lessons because I would always imitate Shirley Temple in her movies. Finally, my mom decided it was time for me to get some proper lessons.
It became part of my life. Every Saturday I would wake up and go to tap class. Every year there would be a new costume and new routine. I couldn't imagine a year without dancing in a show. It really makes me wonder where and when and why I lost that drive. Why did I stop doing something that was so much a part of me?
Now that I am in college I really do miss tap and ballet class. It's only a matter of finding the time to actually attend. Priorities get changed as we get older, thats what I realized. When I was little all I wanted to do was become a tap dancer. Weird.
It's going to be so sad when I can't remember how to do simple steps that came so naturally to me before. Another sad part is that I could have been really good. Teachers saw it in me at an early stage but it seems that when they were putting more effort into me I was losing it.

:(

ITS MY BIRTHDAY

It's my birthday and I can cry if I want to...cryy if I want to!

So today is the day that all the Irish get drunk in the streets to just celebrate being Irish but secretly I know they are all damaging their livers in honor of me! hehe

I have shared my birthday with St. Patty's day for my entire life and as much as I love a day that gives you the excuse to go out and drink I am getting tired of always being expected to wear green! I mean come on! I like the color but I just want to wear something else for a change without having to get pinched! 

Like I said before it's my birthday and I can CRY all I want!

Scrappy Doo

One of my favorite parts of sleeping over my friend's dorms is borrowing their clothes. I know it seems like I am freeloading but honestly I would open my closets for them anytime! (they know who they are).
It is like putting together an outfit with the scraps. Making something out of nothing by mixing the clothes I'm already wearing with the clothes of my friends. They all have their own unique style, which provides me with more selections to chose from. I sometimes find clothes that I would never ever buy but then that just makes the challenge that much more interesting.
Today I am wearing #1 friend's leggings and boots and #2 friend's gray zebra tank and #3 friend's white shirt. It's a look that's not too out of the ordinary but they are pieces that are new to my wardrobe.
THANKS gang!

i'm just so tired

I really just don't get it.

Honestly! I can't understand anything you are saying...speak ENGLISH! If you keep talking in gibberish I will never know what you are complaining about and then the problem will never be solved! If you never tell me I will never change. It's simple we all have voices so use them, that's one thing I learned from the process (clap it up).

We keep walking by the same ugly wall filled with words and gum and paint. Everyday there it is and everyday there you are talking about it. If you are so disgusted by the same wall why do you keep passing it? Criticizing it is not going to make it any more prettier. Covering it up with white paint is not going to cover up the mess you made.

I heard that people criticize others because they are unhappy with themselves. They pick at the little things they are mad at themselves for and when they see it in other people they try to fix it. It's like fixing yourself without having to change.

Whatever the problem is, I'm tired. Coming home after a bad day just to drive all the way back to school at 12 at night doesn't help. Then sitting in a room just to get yelled at AGAIN over the same subject doesn't help. I may be guilty of writing the profanity on the wall but who handed me the brush?

We are all caught in our own mess and we are all going to be booked for vandalism.

Good Morning Mr. Senator!

Trying to make myself a morning person is making me sleepy.
I got myself into a position where waking up at 7 AM is now a regular routine. Although, I am very excited that I landed myself an internship at the state senator's office I am wondering how long I'm going to be able to keep up this early bird streak?
Once I get to work, wearing my first day at work outfit, I'm taken on a tour around the small office that is completely empty at the time. I quickly realize that no one at the office is a morning person either. People start slowly trickling in and I'm awkwardly introduced to each one. My observations show me that people working here are in their early twenties, which I like, and there is only one male. I have a feeling that as time progresses and I become more comfortable in the office I will form some sort of crush on him. That happens when I have nothing else to look at. Lucky for him he is surrounded by intelligent girls for the entire day, oh and me on Mondays and Wednesdays (hehe).
L, the office manager, gets me to work on some paper sorting. I read each of continuants letters and it makes me laugh. I find their passion for certain topics humerous...I can't help it! For example, the topic of marijuana and taxation. People argue how this drug has been around for years and it is a major agricultural crop for Calie. It's just funny...you had to be there, in my head.
I leave the office wondering what will happen next time...maybe I will actually pick up the phone. One task I am surely dreading. Who knew that answering the phone could be such a critical task?
Pondering over my day on my busride to school I came to the conclusion that I'm going to stick with this new me. Waking up early, doing homework early, and being so busy that I can't sit down!
Because this early bird is going to catch the biggest and BEST worm (haha)!--I know you're jealous.

PS
Playing on repeat=Thinking of You by Katy Perry & Mr. Grinch by VersaEmerge
--random, I know, but so is me working at a state senator's office!