i'm on a Mission

Today was a very good day in the neighborhood.

I woke up to the sun shinning and the birds chirping lol

I was able to finish my journals for KA, which were suppose to be due last night (whoops) and I took my pups for a walk at the marina. I even washed the inside and out of my car, go to a Giants game and eat garlic fries with a nice cold lemonade (yummy). Since it was such a nice day out going to a baseball game was very suiting. This game also gave me a new crush to look out for. Number 55 for the Giants, a pitcher hehe!
I got to explore the Castro and Mission. Eat a good burrito at 9 at night and get hit on by some grungy boy who hasn't showered in a couple days. Overall, good day. Now I just got to get into studying mood! Very hard to do after such a relaxing day. At least I don't have to go to work tomorrow!

Scooby Doo

Morning cartoons!

I've never been awake with enough time to actually watch morning cartoons anymore. Brings me back to when I was little.
Scooby Doo is on...gotta run!

NO WATER

I HATE TODAY

There is something about today that I just don't like! I don't know what it is but I'm just so dam cranky. I don't want to hear anyone making jokes at me or just around me. It's one of those days where I just want to b*tch out everyone and then later cry because everyone is so frustrating to deal with.

I sit through a full 2 hours of class hungry for a burrito. My parents always complain that I don't do anything with them so I drive home to eat with them. What happens my mother is trying to make me rice to make me a burrito because they already ate. I know this is really sweet of her but I just don't CARE! I want a burrito not a f*cking imitation that is not going to taste the same. The whole reason I wanted a burrito was so I can get my dam protein that she was complaining I don't get enough of because I don't eat chicken. Well, the only beans we have are the canned ones that also come with BACON (I can't eat bacon). So now I have rice and tortillas. SHOOT ME!

I am about to walk out and just buy myself a burrito but of course I can't do that because my mother is toooo sensitive!

I REALLY HATE TODAY--THE WATER WENT OUT TODAY AND I THINK MY COMPASSION WENT OUT WITH IT.

Banquet

ITS MY BANQUET!

so tell me why I feel that this banquet is going to be one of my more stress full and most irratating! If I don't want to bring a date then it shouldn't be up to anyone else. Just because it is suggested to bring a date then that doesn't mean that everyone HAS to! No one can picture what it is going to be like for me. If you are so ok with it then how would you feel? Honestly?! I tried and tried to get over it the whole day but I can't. I would have moments when I would just say F* it and there are others times when I would say NO WAY.

I just want to get it over with and get my 80 dollars worth!

Oh my life

I need to become an accountant. I want to be the most awesome accountant ever or at least better than Marco hehe! I think its good that I got to know Marco because he makes me so competitive over the stupidest things.
Accounting is something that I want to be the best at. I want to be better than anyone else in my class but my work does not reflect my ambition. I know I could get As in my classes but I don't study! It makes me frustrated because I know my potential but I just don't apply myself. Why is it that I become so lazy with my studies and I wonder what it will take in order to get myself going?
Oh life...I need to find an internship for the summer or sometime in the future. I also want to find a better paying job! I have necessary expenses that I have to be paid for somehow other than daddy's pocket.

My motivation to study should be to earn a well paying job in order to pay for anything I want. Trips, shopping, eating out, apartment, car, and paying off college!

ok...I should pay attention to the teacher now!

Dedicated to you know who...

I mish my bumble bee.

Impulse

If I start planning things it just makes things more complicated.  Although, if I don't make plans for things I get stressed out because I don't know what to do. 

So I figure this out...

Short term=plan

Long term=don't plan

This seems to be opposite of the norm but it's how I function. Short term meaning what am I going to do today in order to get things done i.e homework, chores, shower etc. Long term meaning what am I going to do after college, job search, and tattoos. I can't think about or plan these things out.  I learned that nothing happens the way people plan.  So many graduates say that their job has nothing to do with their major in college.  This is because things change, situations change, and so do passions.  I may like business and accounting but who knows what I may end up doing later in life.  My outlook is try not to speak too soon.  

For example, a tattoo is a long term decision because it is something that is going to stay with you your ENTIRE life unless you would like to go through that painful process of having it removed (not). When I start sketching out a design I never end up getting it.  I always end up with something I think of the night before or right before I sit down in the chair.  I end up loving it and living with it.  

Just try not to think so much and just do! You never know until you try. Besides even teachers tell you right before a multiple choice test...go with your impulse if you don't know the answer to the question.